Oh my, this blog thing has changed!
It has been a while since I have written.
So much has happened.
I will go into the stuff about the past year another time. This time I just wanted to share a dream I had last night.
I have been having some amazing dreams every night for the past year or so. I blame my dreaming on the fact that I usually don't get to the deep sleep stage, as I have to get up a few times during the night to turn Wheelie over on this side or that side, or to untangle his legs, or cover him up. So I sleep lightly in the sleep that produces most vivid dreams.Most of the time I can't remember them after I wake up but I always know that they were very weird/interesting...
Last night I was late picking up Boo from school. I had completely forgotten about it. It was snowing. I had no clue where school was. As a matter of fact, as usual, I found myself in a completely strange town.
No one wanted to help me. I kept driving my car until I found a street with a few stores.
One store had a window that slid open like the drive through at McDonalds. A young lady asked me if she could help. I told her I was looking for this school. She tried helping me, but couldn't. Her computer was down. So I kept on driving around in circles.
Until I came around a corner and ran into my Mom. And right next to her was my Dad. He didn't say anything, but he was bigger than life, and he just stood there and smiled at me. My Mom had a big bag with sandwiches, and a package of rookvlees. I was so relieved. Even though not a word was spoken, I felt safe and I felt as if my Dad was letting me know that things would be okay.
He was so familiar, with his old gray pants and his beige zippered cotton jacket.
I woke up making sure to remember all this by not opening my eyes, but trying to recall the dream.
As I sat on the stool putting on Wheelie's socks and shoes, I was telling him about my dream, and I just burst out in tears. I clearly realized that my vision of my parents, especially my Dad, was a message from them.
They know I have been overwhelmed trying to get through the past year. Especially having to manage the bankruptcy all by myself, the move, the organizing of everything.
But even though my back went out last Sunday, and having to take it easy for a few days, I am still pretty much on track with the packing and all the crap that involves moving.
They are still around, and I feel pretty darn thankful for that.